Why am I nervous? There's no need to be nervous!

Why??? Why do I do this to myself. I'm not due until the first of September. That's four and a half weeks away (Believe me, I know, I'm counting!). Just because I'm having contractions doesn't mean I'm having a baby anytime soon. I know that! Besides, I'm not quite full term yet, so if I did have the baby their could be complications. So why, why do I get excited every single time?

Every single time, I think 'is this the one? Is this the time that real labor is actually going to start?' And every single time I'm disappointed, in a grateful sort of way, when it's not. I don't want to have a baby with complications. I just want a healthy baby. But on the other hand, the sooner that healthy baby can come the better. I am so sick of being pregnant.

The weird thing is, I know they are braxton-hicks contractions (they're not regular in the slightest) but they hurt. And from everything anybody else has told me bracton-hicks aren't supposed to hurt, they're just supposed to tighten. Well these hurt. They hurt a lot. They hurt like really bad menstral cramps. They hurt like I just did 400 sit-ups. I have to remember to breathe during them. But then they pass. I have one or two in a row, and then none for 2-3 hours, sometimes longer.

I called my doctor just to be sure nothing weird was going on. And it's not. If they get to the point that I'm doubled over during a contraction lasting longer than a minute, then I'm supposed to call them back. Otherwise, "sorry lady, you got yourself pregnant, now just deal with it!" (My doctor's office didn't really say that, but that's how you feel sometimes when your ready to be done being pregnant, and there's nothing they can do to relieve your discomfort.)

They are the most annoying, frustrating contractions. Because they're not real. Nothing good is going to come from them, no baby tonight, but hey, I'll have a side of pain with my dinner.